Currently Listening Graduation By Kanye West see related

the following is a very scattered, very honest way
of saying how much bert means to me.

i have never cared so much about another person's feelings, or situations in their life. i care about every little thing. if he's sad, i'm sad. he's happy, i'm happy. we go together, no matter what. i didn't know i could feel this way about someone. i tend to listen to people's problems, but i rarely experience the problem with them. when there is something wrong it is affecting me as much as it is him. i want to take care of him. he is my best friend. definition? [Best Friends are very special people in your life. They are the first people you think about when you make plans. They are the first people you go to when you need someone to talk to. You will phone them up just to talk about nothing, or the most important things in your life. When you're sad they will try their hardest to cheer you up. They give the best hugs in the world! They are the shoulder to cry on, because you know that they truly care about you. In most cases they would take a bullet for you, because it would be too painful to watch you get hurt.] i think that sums it up. :] i can honestly say that i can tell him EVERYTHING, and i have done so. i have no one else like that for me. i don't want anyone else. one minute we are goofing around, tickling each other and wrestling on the living room floor, the next, we're holding each other tight, talking over and over again about the future, what we'll be like together. i am positive i am with him til the end. it has never been easy for me to feel that way. thinking about marrying someone has always scared me. i've wanted it, but i've always been so afraid that once i do, i won't want to be with them anymore. i have no feelings like that when i think of being with him. i have no doubts. at all. he makes me so happy. that sounds so cliche, everybody says these things. [happy is a yuppy word] we aren't just happy together, we are perfect together. we were made for each other. we are meant to be together.

and so we will be.

this school year is interesting to me. it's really, very simple. and the day goes by extremely fast.  i'm liking it. i cannot wait to graduate. i also cannot wait to have a job and be able to drive people other than family. i want to drive bert to school, and work, and places so we can hang out other than the other one's house. it will come soon enough. my car is sitting in my driveway..a big 'FINALLY' can be said about that. i'm not sure how i feel about everything. i'm just living my life as it comes. i do know that bert takes up a good portion of my thoughts every single day i am breathing. as for friends, i have realized that i can definitely see myself becoming much closer to a few people that i've known for awhile, but not known, if that makes sense.

everything's not lost.

i can tell you're lonely, you could use the company.

bert makes me smile.
it's a perfect thing, me and him.

i tend to cry over the stupidest things.
do you do that?
do you ever cry,
and as you're crying, you're like..'wait. what is this for?'?
i think i have built up a lot of things in me,
and i didn't really know it before.

you ever feel like that? like your life is going okay.
good, even.
and then comes someone behind you, someone bringing you down.

then in the end, it was you all along?